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The Rachel Maddow Show, Transcript 6/17/2016

Guests: Sohail Ahmed

Show: THE RACHEL MADDOW SHOW Date: June 17, 2016 Guest: Sohail Ahmed

JOY REID, MSNBC ANCHOR: That is "ALL IN" for this evening. Catch me tomorrow morning on my show, "A.M. JOY", where I`ll have an exclusive interview with former Florida Governor Charlie Crist. That`s 10:00 a.m. So, don`t miss it.

THE RACHEL MADDOW SHOW starts right now.

Good evening, Rachel, and TGIF.

RACHEL MADDOW, MSNBC ANCHOR: TGIF, Joy Reid and Charlie Crist.

REID: Yes.

MADDOW: That`s very exciting. I`ll get up for that.

REID: Thank you.

MADDOW: Thanks, Joy. Have a great weekend.

REID: You, too.

MADDOW: And thanks to you at home for joining us this hour.

It is Friday. Honestly, this is one of those weeks that has been approximately 55 days long. And so, on this Friday, I have a present for you. It`s from "The Onion." Ready?

"U.N. warns Trump may be seven months away from acquiring nuclear weapons." "According to an alarming new global risk report published Tuesday by the U.N. Office for Disarmament Affairs -- not a real thing -- presumptive GOP presidential nominee Donald Trump may be just seven months away from acquiring nuclear weapons."

Quote, "A year ago, the threat didn`t seem great enough to warrant serious concern, but at this moment, a nuclear-capable Trump is a very real and very imminent possibility. The agency`s current projections showed Trump potentially procuring nuclear weapons as early as January of next year."

Quote, "The longer we wait to act, the closer he comes to obtaining a nuclear arsenal. The final red line for preventing him from acquiring this devastating capability comes in early November. If he is not properly dealt with before then, there will be no way to stop him from going nuclear."

It`s "The Onion," it`s not real. But you know, it is also real, which is what makes it as funny as it is scary. But there you go. That`s your happy Friday present.

My friend Pauline sent me that last night in the middle of the night. Now, I am sending it to you as well. You`re welcome. Happy Friday.

I got to warn you, we have got sort of an unusual show tonight. Tonight, we are building the show in large part around a guest on who you have never met before but who is here tonight for "The Interview." I think "The Interview" is going to sort of blow your mind.

"The Interview" guest is joining from us London. We actually tried to get him here to New York to this studio to do this interview in person tonight and we were not successful at our efforts to get him into this country. He`s going to be joining us live from London tonight. And then NBC`s chief foreign correspondent Richard Engel is going to be joining us live from Istanbul right after "The Interview", specifically because of who this guest is. We want to talk to Richard about it.

So, "The Interview" is kind of a big deal. It`s coming up in just a moment on this show. I think it`s going to make everybody crazy when we get to that part of the show. So, please stay tuned for that. We`ve been working on this for a long time.

But I should also tell you tonight, as we speak, there is a Donald Trump event under way just north of Houston. This has been a two-day Texas swing for the Republican presidential candidate. Most Republicans would not be bothering to hold rallies in a red state like Texas in the general election campaign right now, because most Republicans could safely assume they would carry a state like Texas, even if they never even gestured vaguely toward the state during the duration of the campaign, let alone showed up and rented an arena and did a whole event.

Maybe the Donald Trump campaign is insecure about its prospects in Texas. Maybe they believe the Democrats when the Democrats frankly bluff and say they`re going to put Texas in play this year. I don`t know why he`s there.

But Donald Trump has just spent two straight days in Texas. Not just doing fund-raisers there with rich Texas GOP donors. But also doing big public rallies.

Tonight at his ongoing event north of Houston, there was a big hubbub when this African-American man was arrested outside the Trump event, reportedly for having a gun. The initial reports when this man was arrested was that he had a gun in a parking garage adjacent to the Trump event and that`s ominous, it would be scary sounding if it`s true, it would make sense the guy was arrested, except the fact that this is Texas.

You might remember yesterday at Donald Trump`s rally in Dallas, you couldn`t swing a cat without bumping into some guy proudly brandishing an enormous gun while he walked around outside the Trump event even though he didn`t work for any law enforcement agency. Tons of open carry guys at the Dallas event. We`ve had a report the guy at the Houston event was arrested for having a gun. So, we are waiting for more details from the Secret Service or local police about what was initially described as a gun possession arrest in Woodlands, Texas, tonight, at this Donald Trump event. Right now, that whole situation is a little bit murky.

Tomorrow, Mr. Trump will continue his unusual red state tour with a fund raiser and a rally in red state Arizona. Specifically he`s going to be doing this fund-raiser tomorrow at the former home of Barry Goldwater -- the home where Barry Goldwater announced his ultimately disastrous 1964 run for the presidency. That bid for the presidency in `64 did result in Barry Goldwater winning the Republican presidential nomination, but then of course, it also resulted in him getting walloped in the 1964 general election along with Republicans up and down the ballot from coast to coast.

So, this fund-raiser that Donald Trump is doing at Barry Goldwater`s former home in Arizona tomorrow, it is awkward because of that political resonance. Controversial far-right nominee of the Republican Party brings disaster on himself and the entire Republican Party come general election, that`s awkward.

It`s also awkward because Barry Goldwater`s family continues to speak out about how much Barry Goldwater, had he lived, how much he would have hated Donald Trump as a presidential candidate.

In addition to what the Goldwater -- members of the Goldwater family told MSNBC a little while ago, which we reported last night, Barry Goldwater`s widow also told this to "The Washington Post" today. When "The Post" asked her about Donald Trump raising money for his presidential bid at the Goldwater home this weekend, she said, quote, "Ugh or yuck is my response. I think Barry would be appalled his home is being used for that purpose. Barry would be appalled by Mr. Trump`s behavior -- the unintelligent and unfiltered and crude communication style. And he`s shallow -- so, so shallow."

Asked what the late senator would think of Donald Trump as the Republican Party`s nominee, Barry Goldwater`s widow said, quote, "Barry would be appalled and ashamed. He held the office in high regard." Meaning the office of the presidency.

So, the Donald Trump going to Barry Goldwater`s house for a fund-raiser tomorrow is very awkward. I mean, essentially, the Goldwater family is saying that Barry Goldwater is spinning in his grave at the prospect of Donald Trump arriving at his house. That said, it is supposed to be a lovely house.

Barry Goldwater built the house in 1957. He named the house, forgive my pronunciation here, Be-nun-i-kin, which is actually a Navajo word which means "house on top of a hill." And the Navajo name for Barry Goldwater`s house writes us to the next awkward part of this red state swing for the Republican candidate this year, because when Mr. Trump gets to Arizona he had widely been expected to meet with leaders from the Navajo Nation.

The Navajo Nation spreads across three U.S. states including 250,000 people. Its capital is in Arizona. And Donald Trump had been expected to meet with leaders of the Navajo Nation on this trip to Arizona, to offend Barry Goldwater`s ghost tomorrow. But now today, the speaker of the Navajo council has told us that no meeting is happening.

When Donald Trump hits Arizona tomorrow, despite all these reports he was going to meet with the Navajos, he will not be meeting with the Navajos. Which I`m sure will put a real dent in Donald Trump`s repeated and high- profile outreach efforts to impress Native American voters.


DONALD TRUMP (R), PRESUMPTIVE PRESIDENTIAL NOMINEE: So I looked. Hillary Clinton has somebody -- did you ever hear of Pocahontas? Huh? It`s Pocahontas/Elizabeth Warren.

REPORTER: Elizabeth Warren, she seems to have made it her job --

TRUMP: Who, Pocahontas?

REPORTER 2: Is that offensive?

REPORTER: Should you use that term?

REPORTER 3: Very offensive, sorry.

TRUMP: No, I`m sorry about that. Pocahontas? Is that what you said?


MADDOW: So, that`s a Native American reporter, actually, suggesting at that press conference, suggesting to Donald Trump that him using "Pocahontas" as an insult is offensive. That`s what the word she used. She said that`s offensive. His response was, oh, is it? Is it offensive? Oh, I`m sorry about that, Pocahontas. There, I said it again.

So, no, we can report today that Donald Trump will not be meeting with the leaders of the Navajo Nation when he is in Arizona. And, you know, all in all, day one of Donald Trump`s second year running for the presidency, which is today, day one of year two is not going great. Republican Maryland Governor Larry Hogan just told reporters he will not support Donald Trump for president, even though he`s the Republican nominee. The powerful Michigan Republican Congressman Fred Upton has also just come out publicly and said he will not support Donald Trump for president either.

And I got to tell you, "The Washington Post" had the most amazing verbatim quote today from one of the first members of Congress who did come out and endorse Donald Trump right when he started running. Duncan Hunter is a California Republican congressman. Duncan Hunter came right out of the gate endorsing Donald Trump. I believe he was one of the first if not the first members of Congress to endorse Trump. And he`s been all over TV, all over the media, supporting Donald Trump ever since.

But even good old Duncan Hunter at this point in the campaign, he`s getting a little squishy about Donald Trump these days. I`m just going to -- I`m not going to edit this or elucidate this in any way. I`m just going to read Duncan Hunter`s quotes about Donald Trump as spoken to Capitol Hill reporters today, as transcribed today in the "Washington Post." I`m just going to read this directly. This is Duncan Hunter talking about Donald Trump. Ready?

Quote, "I`m not going to comment on what he said, really. I`m not going to comment. It`s all about Trump. Trump`s going to do what Trump`s going to do. What I`m done with is trying to articulate or explain or answer for what Donald Trump says. I think he`ll be a great president but it doesn`t mean we endorse what he says. I think what he says and what he`ll do are two different things."

"Him talking about things" -- this is a direct quote -- "him talking about things and saying things about things is different than him saying what he`s going to do. But he says things about things that I don`t endorse and I`m not going to try to articulate for him. Yes, it`s not my job to answer for Donald Trump. Really, I`m not even a surrogate, I`m just an endorser."

With that, Congressman Duncan Hunter walked back toward the floor to vote.

"He says things about things." And that`s from somebody who likes Trump in Congress. That`s the first Republican congressman out of the gate to endorse Donald Trump. "He says things about things, it`s not my job to answer for him."

So things aren`t going great between the Republican Party, broadly speaking, and their presidential nominee.

Meanwhile, things seem to be going in the opposite direction for the Democratic Party`s nominee. The Hillary Clinton campaign announced today they`re going to be doing a sort of remarkable Democratic event on Tuesday that`s going to feature Hillary Clinton herself but also every single member of the Democratic leadership in Congress. A Democratic fund raiser, every member of the whole extended leadership of the Democratic Congress in the House and the Democratic Congress in the Senate is going to be there with Hillary Clinton.

Honestly, if this was a bipartisan thing, this is the kind of event for which they would pick a designated survivor. They`ve got all their top people all in one place with no exceptions. But Hillary Clinton is doing stuff like this now because she is going through the process of bringing all the elements of the Democratic Party to bear on her presidential run against Donald Trump.

Now, Secretary Clinton has not yet given any indication of the timeline on which she will announce her running mate. Remember Donald Trump says that he`s not going to announce his running mate, his vice presidential running mate, until the convention. Hillary Clinton has not said when she`s going to announce her running mate but that`s sort of the next big shoe to drop on the Democratic side.

I will say there was some pitter-pattering of Democratic hearts today at Clinton headquarters in Brooklyn when a surprise appearance was made by this one very high-profile vice presidential Democratic contender.




I wanted to be here to say thank you, but I also wanted to be here to say, I`m with you all the way, we`ve got to get this done!


MADDOW: Two little snippets of video that we captured from Snapchat and Facebook today as Elizabeth Warren made an unannounced visit to apparently a rapturous welcome at Hillary Clinton`s campaign headquarters today in Brooklyn, New York.

Now, what does that mean? I don`t know. Nobody knows if Elizabeth Warren is going to get the V.P. nod from Hillary Clinton. It`s entirely possible Elizabeth Warren was at Clinton headquarters today for unrelated reasons.

Clearly, she`s going to be an enthusiastic campaigner for Hillary Clinton and against Donald Trump, whether or not she gets the running mate gig. But things are really progressing on very different tracks right now in the two parties. For better, for worse. It`s going to be a big weekend and a big next week ahead.

Tonight, we`ve got lots to come, including a very unexpected guest here tonight for "The Interview." That is ahead, that`s next.

Stay with us.


MADDOW: I mentioned the next big shoe to drop in Democratic politics is when Hillary Clinton is going to announce her vice presidential running mate. But you know what? Here`s a few thousand other shoes that did just drop in a different part of the Democratic Party and you should know about this too.

In his online speech to his supporters last night, Vermont Senator Bernie Sanders told the folks who love him most that they should continue the work of his presidential campaign by running for office themselves, at the state and local level. It was the one big ask he made of his supporters in this long-awaited speech last night.

And that ask appears to have garnered a big response. The Sanders campaign announced today that more than 6,000 people signed up at the Sanders website to say that they`re potentially interested in running for office themselves. They got interest from potential candidates for a majority of statehouse seats, a major right of state Senate seats, from every single congressional district in the country.

Now, we don`t know how the Sanders campaign/movement intends to help those folks become winning candidates. But 6,000 plus new progressive Democratic candidates just signed up to say they maybe want to run for office? That is a big something for Democratic politics if this comes to fruition.

Watch this space.


MADDOW: All right, this is a little different. We`ve got a guest tonight who`s here for "The Interview." It was really hard to get him here. In fact, we failed to physically get him here. The Department of Homeland Security intervened in our plans and would not allow him into the country. So, he will be joining us tonight by satellite.

But aside from that drama, he`s also someone who you`re kind of just going to believe -- you`re not going to believe he exists is the easiest way to say it. He does exist, we have found him, you`re about to meet him.

But let me set it up this way. This week on Tuesday, a state Supreme Court judge in New York gave out a really, really stiff sentence. There isn`t a death penalty in New York state anymore but this is way down the number line toward that severe end of a spectrum in the terms of the kind of sentence you can get in New York state. He was sentenced for murder. It was a guy who killed another man on the streets of New York in Greenwich Village in 2013.

Earlier, the night of the murder, the man had run into a nice local restaurant and screamed at people and started yelling homophobic slurs at people in the restaurant, then pulled up his shirt and showed he was carrying a gun, and he threatened to kill the bartender in the restaurant. He then ran out onto the street, ended up encountering two men on the street, and taunted them for being gay. He ended up basically sort of chasing them down, screaming homophobic slurs at the two men, and then he ended up shooting one of them in the face.

Mark Carson, 32 years old, died that night after getting shot. And the police chased down the man who shot him and put him on trial for murder as a hate crime.

And Elliot Morales acted as his own lawyer at that trial, which is always a bad idea. His defense in part was that it couldn`t have been a hate crime murder he committed even though he was screaming homophobic slurs the whole time he was doing it, even though he targeted the victim apparently only because he was gay, he said it couldn`t have been a hate crime that he committed because he wasn`t straight himself.

The murder of Mark Carson, who chased Mark Carson down and shot him in the face for being gay, says that couldn`t have been a hate crime because although it wasn`t the kind of thing he made a habit of opening up in public, in court, the murderer was happy to admit that his ex-girlfriend and his other former sexual partners were transgender women. So that was his defense.

That defense did not work. He got 40 years to life in prison. The judge concluded that it was still a hate crime against a gay man even if the killer was himself secretly bisexual and then willing to call himself that in court.

In the aftermath of the Orlando massacre this week, the worst mass shooting in American history, the biggest terrorist attack on U.S. soil since 9/11, the deadliest single hate crime attack ever against Latinos and against gay people, in the wake of Orlando, I think it is fair to say the LGBT community was the least surprised to hear reports that emerged shortly after the shooting that the killer himself might have been gay. There have been reports this week that the killer went to the Pulse nightclub many, many times before the shooting, that he had messaged various men through gay dating apps, that he had asked men out socially. There are also reports from his former wife and from his former co-workers that he expressed violently anti-gay sentiments in private, in public, and at work.

Gay people have always believed that a good portion of the most virulent and violent and truly dangerous homophobes in the world are those driven not just by hatred of gay people, but by self-hatred -- people who hate themselves for being gay and they turn that hate outward on other gay people. That means everything from the hate crime I was just talking about to the quack doctors who was running the abusive reparative therapy, cure you of being gay scam, who then turned up with the cute blond male prostitute on his European vacation. It includes the legendary witch hunting homophobe lawyer Roy Cohn who went from being Eugene McCarthy`s top anti-gay McCarthyite henchman in Washington, to being a mob lawyer in New York before himself dying of AIDS and never once admitting his own sexuality while he ruined countless other people`s lives because of their homosexuality.

The gay community has long known that you can absolutely be gay and virulently, even violently homophobic. But how do we understand what it might mean for that screwed-up but familiar mess to intertwine with radical Islam? There`s a lot we still do not know about what led to this catastrophe in Orlando, this disaster.

But our guest tonight for "The Interview" is a little bit of a Rosetta stone for trying to understand the dynamics at work here. His name is Sohail Ahmed, his friends call him Sam. He`s British, he`s 24 years old, he`s Muslim, he was born and raised in East London in a very, very religious fundamentalist family.

He attended a Saudi-funded, fairly radical London mosque every day. He even led prayers at the mosque during Ramadan. He was extremely devout. He was a Salafi Wahhabi Muslim, which is a fundamentalist Saudi interpretation of Islam that is associated in many parts of the world with extreme radicalism and violent extremism.

Sohail was taught and believed, he said he believed that his country of birth, the plate he was born, the U.K., was the enemy of Islam, was the enemy of all Muslims, and that as a Muslim, he was therefore at war with the U.K. even though he was a British citizen. By the time he was a teenager, Sohail Ahmed said he was on the precipice of committing a terrorist bombing in London. He was thinking about committing a terrorist attack himself, in 2008, 2009.

Well, Sohail Ahmed now describes himself as a former radical Islamist. He says he has changed his views entirely on radical Islam, on the justification of violence. He`s changed his views entirely on the value of his citizenship. He`s also come out as gay.

And the Department of Homeland Security intervened to stop him from traveling to New York to be here in person for this interview. They turned him back. Then when he got back to Britain, he was detained there as well and they sent him home to London. But he is out of detention now after quite an odyssey this week trying to get here.

And he joins us tonight live from London for "The Interview." That`s next.


MADDOW: After the massacre in Orlando this week, the BBC in Britain did a remarkable interview with a young man in London who was able to give a perspective on what had just happened that is a unique perspective, to say the least. Just listen to this.


SOHAIL AHMED, FORMER MUSLIM EXTREMIST: I`m ashamed to say that I think I was pretty much on the precipice of committing a terror attack in my home country in the U.K. in London. I was brought up as a Salafi Wahhabi, which is a Saudi form of Islam. And I`m also gay.

And I think there was this strange kind of dynamic between the two whereby I would kind of research all of these Islamic verdicts on what you should do if you have homosexual feelings. Not if you`re gay, because they didn`t accept the whole concept of being gay, no one`s gay, God doesn`t make anyone gay.

So, I would research them and one thing would keep coming up again and again. Be more religious, worship more. And basically because I was a Salafi, I became more religious and that led me to becoming more radical. So, it sounds really paradoxical in a sense. But I actually became more radical because I was gay, in an attempt to cure myself of my homosexuality.


MADDOW: Joining us now live from London for "The Interview" tonight is Sohail Ahmed. He`s a reformed former extremist. He`s been talking this week in the wake of the Orlando shootings about being a gay Muslim, also a reformed extremist.

Sohail, Mr. Ahmed, thank you very much for joining us tonight. I know this was a bit of an ordeal. Thank you for being with us.

AHMED: You`re very welcome. It`s a pleasure being here.

MADDOW: Let me talk about the immediate circumstances just because it`s been -- I know it`s been a very tough week. You were scheduled to be here in New York Wednesday night live to talk about what happened in Orlando this past weekend. You were detained and questioned at JFK. You were sent back to London.

Can I ask you what happened there? What they told you about why you were stopped and why you didn`t -- why you weren`t allowed in?

AHMED: Yes, basically I was taken away to the side into a separate room and made to wait altogether for around eight hours during which I was interviewed by a number of immigration and customs officers and then members of the FBI Joint Task Force, the homeland security agents.

And basically -- I understand what they were doing, they were basically asking me about my background and about how I was a former Islamist and how I was considering carrying out attacks at one point and who my acquaintances were and how I had changed. Basically they wanted to learn from my story. And they wanted to learn how they can kind of best fight Islamism.

And they were really nice. By the end of it, I had become best friends with all of them and they really kind of respect the work that I`m doing.

MADDOW: When you say they were nice and it ended in a friendly way, will you be allowed to -- did they give you any indication if you will be allowed to come into the United States? They did turn you back and send you back to England.

AHMED: Yes, they turned me back. They put me on a flight back to London. And they said that the reason why was because my ESTA application under the visa waiver program, considering I`m a British citizen, they basically said that if I had had a visa, I would have been allowed in. However, because there was an administrative error with the ESTA application, they couldn`t allow me in.

And that together with the fact that the Orlando attacks had just happened so recently and given my background and given the fact that there`s been a recent spate of terror attacks in the European Union, the U.S. authorities are basically worried about terrorists infiltrating the U.S. from Europe. So basically, because of all of that together, I was not granted the right to enter the U.S.

However, that said, the immigration officers and the customs officers who interviewed me and the homeland security officers, they all completely -- they all agreed I should be allowed into the U.S., because they said the work I`m doing is incredibly important.

MADDOW: The work you`re doing is in large part talking about not only being a gay Muslim but also talking about the reform process that you went through, what you described as having been on the precipice of having committed a terror attack in the U.K.

When you say you were on the precipice of doing that, what do you mean by that specifically?

AHMED: Basically, I was at one point seriously considering carrying out attacks. And basically when I say that, what I meant is that the idea was that I would basically make a homemade explosive device, plant it at a location, and detonate it remotely.

I didn`t get into any planning. I didn`t actually take any steps to actually commit this terror attack. I didn`t really kind of plan with anyone. Thankfully I kind of stepped back from the edge before I did any of that.

MADDOW: Why did you want to do it?

AHMED: Basically, I wanted to do it because -- for a number of reasons because I was living in a post-9/11 world where differences between Muslims and non-Muslims were being entrenched in the Islamist community. And on top of that, because I`m gay.

And basically, as you basically mentioned to your audience before, it was - - I was trying to cure my sexuality by becoming more religious. Given that I was a Salafi Muslim, that meant I was becoming more radical. So, it`s a bit strange and it might seem a bit paradoxical. But that was the case with me.

MADDOW: Sohail, you`re in your early mid-20s right now. So, you would have been a teenager when you were thinking about doing this, high school age, 16 or 17. Were you -- was anybody else that -- were you part of a group? Was anybody else that you knew in on your plans or your thinking on this? Did anybody know you were planning it? Was anybody helping you or encouraging you to do this?

AHMED: Well, no one -- I didn`t really tell anyone about it because I didn`t want to get caught. I might have mentioned to a few of my closest friends in passing, like half-jokingly. And generally, the people that I was around thought like me. They were also Islamists.

So, they were generally kind of supportive whenever I would mention things like that. That might sound shocking but that`s the case. But that is basically what happened.

MADDOW: And, Sohail, did anybody who you knew from this time in your life, either from your mosque or your peer group that was encouraging of you in this, did any of those people end of committing attacks or going off to join extremist groups overseas?

AHMED: Well, one of my friends, basically high school, he ended up fighting in Syria. Initially, he went to Egypt to study Arabic. And then from there, he went on to fight in Syria. And the reason why I know is because he ended up calling me and he said, "Well, I`m fighting with the brothers." With the brothers, he meant with other Muslim people.

I don`t know who he was fighting with. He didn`t mention that to me. But he said that he was enjoying it and he was basically trying to convince me to come as well.

MADDOW: Sohail, if you can hold on, I need to take a quick break. But I`d like to come back and talk with you about what made you decide to step back from that precipice, and also your experience about come out to yourself and your family as gay.


MADDOW: Stay with us, Sohail Ahmed. Appreciate it.

Sohail Ahmed is joining us from London. We`ll be right back with him in just a moment. Stay with us.


MADDOW: Joining us again now live from London for "The Interview," is Sohail Ahmed. He`s a reform former Islamic extremist who`s been talking this week in the wake of the Orlando shootings about being a gay Muslim man, and also a reformed extremist.

Sohail, thank you again for being with us here. It`s good to have you here.

AHMED: You`re welcome.

MADDOW: So, you have talked about when you were a teenager a few years ago, you had thought about committing an attack, you just said you intended to remotely detonate some sort of improvised explosive if you were going to do that.

What were you intending -- what kind of damage were you intending to do? Were you intending to kill people? Had you gotten that far in terms of thinking about it? And did you have a target in mind?

AHMED: Well, I did have a specific target in mind. I was basically thinking of carrying out an attack in Canary Wharf, which is a developed area, a redeveloped area in East London, basically simply because of its symbolic nature. It symbolizes the development of London and the -- how rich London is. And, yes, basically that was -- that was the plan.

But I think one thing that I really want to mention is that when I was an Islamist, there were lots of people who agreed with me. The fact is that the Islamist ideology isn`t simply just a fringe minority view. It`s more of -- it`s a significant strain within Islam.

When I stopped becoming an Islamist, when I became de-radicalized, I was suddenly struck with thinking, "wow, we`re really screwed if we`re in this situation." Which is why I`m doing the work I`m doing now as it relates to countering extremism.

MADDOW: When you say that you became de-radicalized, you stepped back from the precipice, you never participated in any sort of violent attack. What caused that transition in you? What happened?

AHMED: There were a number of reasons. There was one guy in my high school who would come into the prayer room and ask really difficult questions about literalist Sharia law, about stoning people to death, and killing apostates. And that kind of triggered a lot of doubts in me.

And also on top of that, there was the -- when 7/7 happened, I -- initially, I was supportive of it. I`m ashamed to say, because I was an Islamist then. However, slowly as time went on, I started to kind of think that this really just doesn`t seem right. The people that died were Londoners just like me. This is my city that was attacked.

And then basically I kind of started having doubts about my views. And I then started looking at the work from the Quilliam Foundation, which is a U.K. think tank, the world`s first counter-extremism think thank. And I started reading their writings, watching their media appearances. And basically, I was convinced by them that the Islamist way of thinking isn`t the way to go ahead and is an evil ideology and an insidious ideology, and that it must be stopped in its roots.

MADDOW: At the same time, you were coming to terms with being gay? Acknowledging that to yourself.

AHMED: Yes, yes.

MADDOW: Eventually acknowledging that to your friends and ultimately your family. How did that intertwine with that process you were going through?

AHMED: See, what happened is I became de-radicalized way before I even came out to myself. I wasn`t even out to myself. I didn`t accept the fact that I was gay. I didn`t know the fact that I was gay.

All I knew is that I had same-sex attractions but I assumed that they were simply there as a -- temporarily, or that I was possessed, or that it was a deviation of my internal nature. But basically after I became de- radicalized, the final thing that I changed my mind on and that I managed to gather the courage to change my mind on was my sexuality. And the way I did that was researching, looking at scientific studies on the topic of sexuality because I wouldn`t study -- I wouldn`t trust my own feelings.

So, when I looked at that, I realized being gay is natural. It`s not a choice. You can`t change it. That`s when I came out to myself.

Then I studied progressive liberal interpretations of Islam of which there are many. And I was convinced by them. The LGBT positive interpretations, I was convinced by them. And then I was, for the first time ever, happy to be Muslim and happy to be gay.

MADDOW: After this Orlando attack that`s happened here in the States this week, there are some questions and there`s some foggy reporting about the shooter`s sexual orientation, questions about maybe -- whether obviously he was violently homophobic, attacking a gay bar in the way that he did. But this questions as to whether he may also be personally gay.

I wonder if that question about him resonates at all with you, growing up in an intensely religiously anti-gay environment and then coming out to yourself through that difficult process of acknowledging. Does that resonate with you at all?

AHMED: Absolutely. It completely resonates with me. In fact -- just imagine you`re brought up believing that you`re an abomination, that you`re evil, and that you should hide who you are. That would result in internalized homophobia which would then extend to externalized homophobia.

On top of that, given that there are significant and mainstream conservative traditionalist interpretations of Islam that stipulate that gay people should be killed, it`s not surprising that he did end up on a shooting spree. That together with the fact that he was mentally ill and that -- also, and primarily I would say, the Islamist ideology, all of that together basically led him to, in my view, carry out this attack.

And I can`t stress enough the Islamist ideology, because what it does is that it provides the framework to channel all the grievances and all the issues and the problems a person has towards one direction -- the end goal of which is to carry out mass terror attacks.

MADDOW: Sohail Ahmed, it`s been really enlightening to talk to you just because you have a perspective on this that very few people in the world have and I think a lot of people would not have man imagined before meeting you here tonight. Thank you for talking with us and good luck to you.

AHMED: You`re very welcome.

MADDOW: Thanks, Sohail.

AHMED: Thank you.

MADDOW: I should say, with the Orlando shooter, again, this is -- we don`t know that the Orlando shooter was gay. I`m not even sure that the word "gay" has just one meaning when thinking about somebody who has done what he did, regardless of his previous sexual history. But the perspective of somebody like Sohail Ahmed is obviously a unique and uniquely important one at a time like this. And I`m happy we finally got him here.

After this conversation, there`s one person I want to talk to about it, NBC chief foreign correspondent Richard Engel joins us live next.



AHMED: Basically, I was at one point seriously considering carrying out attacks. And basically when I say that, what I meant is that the idea was that I would basically make a homemade explosive device, plant it at a location, and detonate it remotely.

I didn`t get into any planning. I didn`t actually take any steps to actually commit this terror attack. I didn`t really kind of plan with anyone. Thankfully I kind of stepped back from the edge before I did any of that.


MADDOW: Sohail Ahmed speaking with me from London just moments ago.

NBC`s chief foreign correspondent Richard Engel recently did a big reporting effort with American citizens who became radicalized here in the U.S. before leaving this country to travel overseas to join ISIS. After this interview with reformed Islamic extremist Sohail Ahmed from London tonight, my friend Richard Engel joins us now live from Istanbul to talk about it.

Richard, thank you for staying up until the dead of night to join us. I really appreciate you being here.

RICHARD ENGEL, NBC NEWS CHIEF FOREIGN CORRESPONDENT: The sun is just rising in Istanbul. So, good morning from Saturday.

MADDOW: To you -- I know you were able to hear this interview that I just did with Sohail Ahmed.

ENGEL: Yes, very interesting.

MADDOW: I wanted to ask you, obviously there`s the issue of him being a gay former Islamic extremist. Aside from that, does his story dovetail with the kind of stories that you heard from American extremists?

ENGEL: Well, I didn`t hear anyone who had exactly his story, which is very unique, but it is -- it does fit the kind of profile that ISIS is looking for. A lot of times they get people who feel damaged in a way, people who feel ostracized. A lot of the Europeans who have gone to ISIS were ex-drug dealers, people who had criminal records, weren`t successful at home, wanted to exchange their old thug life for one that they thought would be pious and that would give them instant access to heaven.

So, by going there, you not only become a hero to ISIS. It`s a way of expunging all expunging all of your own -- all of your old sins. In the U.S., there were a lot of different people, of the people we profiled, a lot of different backgrounds.

But generally, they were people who were looking for something bigger. They found themselves lost in American society. They found themselves angry. They were influenced by this, what he was calling the Islamist mind-set, where the world appears black and white and everything around them is -- seems evil and the cards are stacked against them as Muslims, and here is this white alternative. Here is this perfection that ISIS is offering. And they fell for it.

MADDOW: And you know, what you`re saying there, and I think stuck with me -- that`s what stuck with me about what I thought was the most resonate thing that Sohail just told me, which is what the Islamic the extremists want is for you to take any grievance you have, any beef you`ve got with the world, any way you think you`ve been wronged, whatever it is, put it all in to what they`re doing. Use anything you`ve got, even if it`s a mental illness, as long as it channels you towards committing a violent act and they can claim it, they`ll take it. They don`t care what your motivation is.

And that does open them up to be taking not only people who feel oppressed for any reason but also people who are just sick or criminally inclined.

ENGEL: Well, this part of the world -- and by the way, there are plenty of gay people in the Middle East. But generally, this part of the world does not welcome homosexuals. It is not particularly welcoming. And they are seen as people who have a disease and can be cured.

And people will -- it`s not uncommon in this part of the world for fathers to take their sons to the cleric, who will teach them exactly what this young man was saying earlier. They need to be more religious, they need to study more, and they will find a way out of this predicament of homosexuality. That is one kind of -- that can set up all kinds of contradictions, that could lead people to join extremist groups.

But there are many others -- failing at school, failing at life, failing to find a job. Whatever it happens to be, this mind-set will say to you, it`s not your fault. These things happen. And there`s a way out of it. And that is through redemption, through Islam, through radical Islam. And then you go down that path, then the ultimate sign of your devotion would be to sacrifice your life for the cause.

MADDOW: Yes, it`s devastatingly simple and devastatingly wrong and dangerous.

NBC News foreign news correspondent, Richard Engel, just before dawn for us in Istanbul tonight -- Richard, thank you. It`s great to have you here.

ENGEL: Good to be here.

MADDOW: Thanks, my friend.

All right. We`ll be right back. Stay with us.


MADDOW: This is the worst correction ever. This is the worst correction ever. This is worse than me saying that the Pacific Ocean was the Indian Ocean. Oh, no, I mean the Atlantic.

This is -- I`m going to say a million Hail Marys. I will tithe to the people of Minnesota.

Earlier in the show, I was talking about the legendary witch hunting, closeted homophobe lawyer Roy Cohn, who I should have said worked for Senator Joe McCarthy of Wisconsin, but my mistake, I said he worked for Eugene McCarthy, the senator from Minnesota, who is a very different guy. Ran for president in 1968 as an opponent of the Vietnam War, part of the reason my mom became a United States citizen was to vote for Eugene McCarthy.

Eugene McCarthy of Minnesota very much opposed the witch hunting carried out by Joe McCarthy of Wisconsin.

I am a freaking idiot. We`ll be right back. Sorry.


MADDOW: So in a campaign where we have already seen a lifetime`s worth of political ads, it is a real struggle to stand out in the crowd, no matter the race. Or at least that was the real struggle in the presidential race, until this ad just hit the air waves.

All right, it`s Friday, it`s been a tough week, just sit back, just watch this. Let this wash over you. Go on. Watch.


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UNIDENTIFIED MALE: When he decides to launch his nuclear war, will his stubby fingers even be able to push the button all the way down?

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Paid for Americans Against Insecure Billionaires with Tiny Hands PAC and not authorized by any candidate or candidates` committee.


MADDOW: Not just for your liberal aunt`s Facebook page anymore. I`ve got to tell you, this ad is airing on TV! In a very select market, I will admit, but Americans Against Insecure Billionaires with Tiny Hands PAC did scrounge up enough money to apparently start running this in the D.C. market on cable and, you know, I`m not saying that Donald Trump has baby hands. I do not want to propagate that vicious and well-contested rumor. As far as I can tell, he has very normal, adult human-sized hands and fingers. But -- very gentle. Very gentle.

That does it for us tonight. We`ll see you again on Monday.

Now, it`s time for "HARDBALL WITH CHRIS MATTHEWS." Have a good weekend.