3. Steps to Avoid Being Seen or Heard
After their first two sexual encounters during the November
1995 government shutdown, according to Ms. Lewinsky, her
encounters with the President generally occurred on weekends,
when fewer people were in the West Wing.(110) Ms. Lewinsky
testified:
He had told me . . . that he was usually around on the
weekends and that it was okay to come see him on the
weekends. So he would call and we would arrange either to
bump into each other in the hall or that I would bring
papers to the office.(111)
From some of the President's comments, Ms. Lewinsky gathered that
she should try to avoid being seen by several White House
employees, including Nancy Hernreich, Deputy Assistant to the
President and Director of Oval Office Operations, and Stephen
Goodin, the President's personal aide.(112)
Out of concern about being seen, the sexual encounters most
often occurred in the windowless hallway outside the study.(113)
According to Ms. Lewinsky, the President was concerned that the
two of them might be spotted through a White House window. When
they were in the study together in the evenings, he sometimes
turned out the light.(114) Once, when she spotted a gardener
outside the study window, they left the room.(115) Ms. Lewinsky
testified that, on December 28, 1997, "when I was getting my
Christmas kiss" in the doorway to the study, the President was
"looking out the window with his eyes wide open while he was
kissing me and then I got mad because it wasn't very romantic."
He responded, "Well, I was just looking to see to make sure no
one was out there."(116)
Fear of discovery constrained their sexual encounters in
several respects, according to Ms. Lewinsky. The President
ordinarily kept the door between the private hallway and the Oval
Office several inches ajar during their encounters, both so that
he could hear if anyone approached and so that anyone who did
approach would be less likely to suspect impropriety.(117) During
their sexual encounters, Ms. Lewinsky testified, "[W]e were both
aware of the volume and sometimes . . . I bit my hand -- so that
I wouldn't make any noise."(118) On one occasion, according to Ms.
Lewinsky, the President put his hand over her mouth during a
sexual encounter to keep her quiet.(119) Concerned that they might
be interrupted abruptly, according to Ms. Lewinsky, the two of
them never fully undressed.(120)
While noting that "the door to the hallway was always
somewhat open," the President testified that he did try to keep
the intimate relationship secret: "I did what people do when
they do the wrong thing. I tried to do it where nobody else was
looking at it."(121)
4. Ms. Lewinsky's Notes and Letters
The President expressed concern about documents that might
hint at an improper relationship between them, according to Ms.
Lewinsky. He cautioned her about messages she sent:
There were . . . some occasions when I sent him cards or
notes that I wrote things that he deemed too personal to put
on paper just in case something ever happened, if it got
lost getting there or someone else opened it. So there were
several times when he remarked to me, you know, you
shouldn't put that on paper.(122)
She said that the President made this point to her in their last
conversation, on January 5, 1998, in reference to what she
characterized as "[a]n embarrassing mushy note" she had sent
him.(123) In addition, according to Ms. Lewinsky, the President
expressed concerns about official records that could establish
aspects of their relationship. She said that on two occasions
she asked the President if she could go upstairs to the Residence
with him. No, he said, because a record is kept of everyone who
accompanies him there.(124)
The President testified before the grand jury: "I remember
telling her she should be careful what she wrote, because a lot
of it was clearly inappropriate and would be embarrassing if
somebody else read it."(125)
5. Ms. Lewinsky's Evaluation of Their Secrecy Efforts
In two conversations recorded after she was subpoenaed in
the Jones case, Ms. Lewinsky expressed confidence that her
relationship with the President would never be discovered.(126) She
believed that no records showed her and the President alone in
the area of the study.(127) Regardless of the evidence, in any
event, she would continue denying the relationship. "If someone
looked in the study window, it's not me," she said.(128) If someone
produced tapes of her telephone calls with the President, she
would say they were fakes.(129)
In another recorded conversation, Ms. Lewinsky said she was
especially comforted by the fact that the President, like her,
would be swearing under oath that "nothing happened."(130) She
said:
[T]o tell you the truth, I'm not concerned all that much
anymore because I know I'm not going to get in trouble. I
will not get in trouble because you know what? The story
I've signed under -- under oath is what someone else is
saying under oath.(131)