November 19, 1998 Although I have ended my fast, my body rejects food. It is most disgusting, and in itself exhausting. I did keep a small bit of toast down yesterday...but I continue to lose wieght. The scales indicate 41lbs. Make-up greatly conceals the devestation the fast has caused in my appearence. I have also learned to conserve energy so that I am able to function at a capasity that others are not truely aware I am struggling even to walk for any distance. I continue to have chest pains, as well as shortnes of breath, but have notice these incidences decreasing. The Justice Department program began this afternoon. I slept most of the day praying I could walk in with my condition not noticable. I think I pulled it off, if not, no one said much, other than I had lost wieght. I am hoping the program justice is attempting to create will benefit those involved with missing children and thier parents. So far, the program appears to be rather generic, but those invilved in its creation are enthusiactic and I find them most inspiring.