November 12, 1998 The weather is getting colder and it is a bit wet which seems to reflect my outlook. I am still not aware of a single missing children's agency which receives substantial funding that actively coordinates recoveries by way of "case type". I have been trying to explain to so many that if cases are filed according to specific circumstance and not country, many cases could move forward immediately. I am not sure why agencies refuse to employ recovery strategists, those who actually can sit down and legally and skillfully take specific case profiles and implement a set plan. I know it works, we have been doing it for sometime. I am told, however, that the function of most of the big organizations that have huge funding, is NOT to find kids, but rather to "educate"...... I feel my efforts are in vain. While it appears that parents and many others are supporting my efforts to bring Nadia home and bring attention to the other children, those empowered to make those changes remain silent. It is a shame that the President of the U.S. will not do anything. At least I know that the American people are behind me, the Senators and agencies all over Europe...still, it would be nice to think my own President acknowledged Nadia's plight. I do not know how much longer I can do this. I thought today, I am going to stop this. I am tired and there is not much more I can give. I have no intentions of dying...I am too concerned and not willing to let this this go until my child is home. I can not fight if I am dead. I can not yell, protest, write letters or make phone calls if I am dead. I refuse to "go away" like the Saudi's told Pat Roush.