November 2, 1998 I am deeply troubled that I am receiving more and more e-mail and letters in the mail from individuals who say they will fast with me. I do not know these people and do not condone anyone going through this horrible effort. I can not be responsible for other causing harm to themselves and while it is meant as a show of support, I am sure they can not possibly know the real agony of fasting for weeks on end. My fast was to get government attention and action...that has not happened. No one calls. My telephone still rings with desperate parents on the other end needing assistance. My e-mail boxes continue to fill with distraught parents who have contacted me thinking that I have a "magic" solution. While I have been very successful in assisting many parents in recovering their children, it has not been without a huge price. I have risked my life repeatedly in countries that are not only anti-american , but also have also gone into war zones. I am not sure why I do this. I certainly have no military background, and yet my success rate is higher than most. Perhaps it is because I depend heavily on that maternal instinct that is so powerful little can come between that child and myself. I feel like I have not changed anything. I feel that all I have done to recover my own child has failed and even though I have brought back others, children continue to be handed over to their abductors... Violaine lost her son for a second time. These judges can not stop ordering visitation even after a child like Ryan is abducted to Lebanon, then recovered. Poor Ryan, abducted for the second time, he has not seen his mother now for over a year. I do not understand the mind of a parent that will rip a child from its parent and deny them any access to that parent. I can not even begin to imagine what kind of monster it takes to lye in bed at night and listen to the child they abducted cry itself to sleep for its other parent. This must truly be the most dangerous species of mankind...to inflict such horrendous pain on ones own child.