November 1, 1998 I have lost 22 lbs. since Oct. 15 Six years ago today I was not able to go to work. I spent every moment with Nadia, savoring it, knowing they were the last moments. I read her story book after story book. We went out and fed the ducks. I held her at night and watched her sleep as I gently brushed her hair out of her eyes. I remember crying and trying very hard not to because I was afraid I would wake Nadia up..... I feel as thought I am again counting down the hours until Nadia is gone...just as I had six years ago. I remember is as if it were yesterday. Judge Judith Cross was not going to change her order to have Nadia sent to Florida for a month with her father. Nothing I said could convince her that Nadia would never come home. Judge Cross changed her ruling after Nadia was kidnapped...and ordered her father to return her. He was long out of the country by then. The judge issued a bench warrant for his arrest....but he was long gone. The judge even took away his right to visit Nadia again....but my baby was gone! No authority in the US can get her back...but Judge Cross had the authority to enable her abduction with immunity. I think Solomon's sword may be more merciful in some of these custody disputes compared to the horrors children face as a result of judge's like Judith Cross who's orders inflict unspeakable atrocities on these innocent souls. Nadia was not her only victim. I know of two other children abducted to the middle east as a result of out of state visitation.